I can’t remember when it exactly started but I guess it has been a week or more now. I can’t breathe properly, my chest is so tight. At first I thought I was just full but then why even I haven’t eaten still I feel the same. This is something scary. I feel like at anytime I’m gonna lose my mind. I’ve cried because I breathe hardly and I don’t have any family near me in here to take care of me. I had this idea of goin to a hospital for a check up but I can’t do it alone. I’m really scared of the possible results. Just this morning I googled my case and there are these similar symptoms of serious illness. Wuaa!! I wanna scream out loud. Why is this happening to me? Am I gonna die soon? Alright, if I am, I want to write and write my thoughts on my blogs while I’m still alive. If i’m sounding like O.A., Sorry but it’s what I feel like now. I can take having a fever, dysmenorrhea, cough, cold or painful body than having this condition of breathing hardly. ;-( Ohwell, I’m still thinking positively. 😉
Like I said I want to write and write coz’ I know these might stay longer than I could. And writing has been my way of getting rid of stress, and has been my way of bursting my feelings. So, I’ll start it when the day I came back here in the Philippines that was  first week of June this year. As I expected, I was late in college for the whole week but thanks to my friends they’d been there supporting me and helping me to adjust myself again coz’ I was fresh from Saudi Arabia and I stayed there for more than 2 months. Thanks to my college friends who make my first week easy for me. I was so thankful coz without them, everything would be so difficult for me to handle. I moved to a dormitory which looks like a pad and which is strictly for Muslim girls only. I was alone in that room, mom was with me too to help me in moving to my dorm. She helped me bought the things I needed for a home. She’d been staying here for more than a month but she spent it more with other people than to me, but I don’t feel bad bout that.. She had to visit our provinces because she had important family matters to handle and I couldn’t question that. But there was this bad thing happened on me in that dormitory so I moved back to the apartment where I stayed last year. I’ve been adjusted now, mom is now in our family in Saudi Arabia. I’m here making my goals. Allah ( SWT ) is always good. I can feel it. Though my family and trusted people aren’t here beside me, I know I ain’t alone coz’  my faith brings me near Him.
This semester has been so cruel since it started. Studying Physics, Biology and Chemistry at the same time gonna make us insane. My schedule is so tight. It is just in this semester when I feel that sleeping more than 5hrs is a sin. I had a hard time adjusting my sleeping/studying time. Before, I felt sleepy at 9pm and I need to sleep atleast 8hrs a day or else I’d  have a headache. I needed to lessen my sleep to 5hrs and I need to sleep at 12pm. It took a lot of practice and determination for me to achieve my goal and I succeed. 😉
I think, I must stop this post in here. I have to study for Physics and Chemistry, make my report in Biology and chemistry and review for Philippine history, and practice solving problems in Plane Trigonometry. ~ Rabi Zidnee Ilma. This entry starts my posting in here every weekend.  🙂